....overwhelmth.....

Its Sunday. As Alex sleeps on the couch I sit here and think about a million things. I have a new group of four year olds to whip into shape at work. School starts back tomorrow. In five weeks we are moving to a new place. In approximately ten weeks we are going to have a new baby. The holidays are almost immediately following that.... and, my car could die at any possible moment. I have been feeling so overwhelmed by all of these things lately. I feel like I have so much to do and not nearly enough time to do it in.

Everyday I have so much to do at work. I have a new class of 24 "afterschool" prek children and a new employee who will be working with me for this year. We have some kind of drama every single day with the children, and although my "help" is getting better - I have to do a lot of things myself. In general, I do have a pretty good group of little ones but because I have so many of them it makes the day a lot harder and a lot longer. As far as my own schooling - I am a little concerned about class starting back. I am really glad I decided to only take one this semester, with the baby coming in October and all - but it is an 8 o'clock. I haven't had one that early in a pretty long time. I am so worried I might oversleep and not make it!!
Luckily, I found out I have a friend taking the class; so, once Avery comes and I miss - I will still be able to get the notes!! YAY!
Alex is also starting back school tomorrow and he decided to try and take ten hours this semester. Not quite full time, but it might be hard for him to get everything done that he needs to once Avery arrives. I hope that he will be able to manage going to school and work everyday on not a lot of sleep. I am a little worried for him. At least we'll only have about a month and a half of school left after Avery. With our families here to help I am sure it won't be too bad.

So.... since we are moving soon, I have recently been spending my mornings packing up things that Alex and I either do not need or do not use... as well as organizing the things that we use regularly. This turned into about a week long event which left our apartment looking like a trashy goodwill center! We came home from work to a mess everyday, which frustrated Alex (- I try to explain to him that we need to do this now rather than the week we move!!). So I would try and clean up a little - I just kept going and going and going. By the end of the day, I felt so exhausted and my feet would be killing me! Why do I do this to myself? Fortunately, I just got everything cleared up and back to normal... I moved all of our unused junk to my parents house!! Hopefully, this will lead to a successful yard sale where I can make a little extra money to get some things for our new place. Which when we move in, will leave us about five weeks to get everything ready for our little Persch. We are so lucky to have gotten so many things from other people already, but we still have to get a few more important items. We haven't gotten a crib yet - which is a necessity!! But, with no where to put it - we couldn't really get one before the move. I really wanted to get a glider rocking chair - but I am not sure that's going to happen this time around... :( thats ok. With a list of other things and two baby showers in the next couple of months, I am hoping that we are able to get everything we need. We are excited that he is almost here.... he moves so much I think he wants to get out....
The one thing we are not so ecstatic about is the holidays. Don't get me wrong we love the holidays and spending time with our families, but with the holidays comes colder weather, which won't be a great thing for Avery. We are planning on keeping him home as much as possible, so that he doesn't get sick. Besides that, I am kind of excited about Thanksgiving and Christmas - except for the insane traffic and all the crazy people that will be out shopping. Plus, I'll be off of work for those two months which will be a nice break from work, but a really busy life at home with Avery.

On top of it all, there is the topic of my vehicle. My 1995 Rodeo is trying to hold out as long as it can for me, but Alex and I are unsure about how much longer that will be. Since we can't really afford another car payment, we are hoping that my poor worn out little SUV will last us at least until next summer. But, we also have to put out alot of money each time it needs to be fixed - so we can't really decide which is the lesser of two evils :) - either fork out extra money each month or pay an insane amount every six or eight months. Say a prayer for us friends..... because either way - it sucks.

I just wanted to share some of those things we are experiencing right now. Althought Heavenly Father always blesses us with the things we need when we need them, its hard not to think about what might happen or how things might turn out and then try to have the outcome we would like. I guess it doesn't always happen the way we want, but it happens the way it's supposed to. I feel so overwhelmed sometimes, but I know that everything will end up being ok - that's probably not going to stop me from stressing out though!!